how do you know its not going right

Maybe stop smoking so much pot and start grabbing life by the balls. It takes many mistakes before you get it right, some people are lucky, others make their own, and others don't bother because they let shit get to them.

So don't blame God, and don't blame other people, you are accountable for your own life.

Focus on the things that go right. Look for the silver lining in everything. ;)

Reevaluate you approach to challenges ask yourself if maybe there is something you can do better. Or maybe you've just hit a streak of bad luck that happens to all of us it will end eventually.

Do it, embrace the hate and worship the lord Satan and live as a hater of any and all religious authority like me.

Hate is a pretty natural part of the process of healing for a lot of people - pain, anger, hate, forgiveness, growth. It all goes together in its own way. Whoever the hate is directed at however, I find they generally are not worth it and that the hate is only ever going to hurt oneself more.

It makes sense to hate God if you (a) think he exists; and (b) think he is choosing to inflict whatever injury or injuries on you. The way I see it though is that God does not exist and things happen because they happen. We get through them the best we can, and generally speaking the best way forward is letting things go or turning them into positives (easier said than done, I know).

I thought you were going to lay low on all the dark stuff for a while?

Always remember that you have it better than some other people. Obviously something went right because you are alive. Children across the globe are dying because they simply cant get a small cup of water. Sone children in America are sleeping out in the cold because they never had a chance. If God didnt care about you then you wouldn't be here. He does care. This is the world dragging you into an inferno filled with hands of sorrow and faces of rage. Dont give up hope because you never know when you may fall to the bottom or rise above it all.