I am going to hold your eyelids open with toothpicks and blow chili powder into your face and eyeballs with a leaf blower then I am going to treat your nut sack with solvents until it dissolves and take nude photos of your exposed, embarrassed testicles without their consent to post on the dark web porn network. Following this I will conduct a psychic reading on the lines on the bottom of your feet then slice you along said lines with a scalpel covered in the inner-crotch residue of a Wuwu in heat which was extracted just before it's attempt to hump the corpse of a dead Palestinian child.
worshipping
It wasn't a religion
now you've abandoned everything you ever believed in
No, my core personality was always not aligned with socialism but I had an idealized vision of it in my mind.
When all the odds are stacked against you but you stand your ground regardless then there was a point to your life.
You have a suicidal and fruitless philosophy that both devalues yourself and expects everyone else to devalue themselves and throw themselves head first at anything that might be worked around or accepted as inevitable.
If you are willing to sacrifice everything you believe in for the illusion of respect from people who don't deserve to be respected
No, it's about being in an advantageous position rather than seeking respect. To me winning = happiness and survival and to you winning means doing what is "right" even if it's futile or leads to you "losing" on a personal level.