Why is my life so boring?! It's like I'm in hell!!!
I've always imagined that there are other people like me out there. But the problem is, if there are no one will ever meet each other. You know why? Because my life is a broken record. I get out of bed, then I go to class. I come back to my dorms and I have restlessness to the extent where I walk around in circles around the dorms. I try to break past this and have a normal social life, but even when I can successfully make friends this gets in the way...
I've had nights where I walk in circles until 5:30AM, which means I can't do anything with my times. This dives down for short periods of time, but I have a lot of stress and this makes it impossible to deal with or do anything. My name should be "walking in circles" because that's how my life is. I try to solve this, during the times where I can do things sometimes, and nothing ever works.
I've had various psychological breakdowns over not being able to do anything. I would trade the combination of autism, restlessness, caffeine addiction, and schizophrenia, in one of various illnesses at any time.
@theists, I'm agnostic but: If you have some weird spellcaster friend who's going to be like "be careful what you wish for when it comes to being normal!!!" sign me the fuck up, other than I would want to keep my intelligence. That would be fine. But other than that, sign me up mofo!!!
I was wondering what people on create debate thought of this since you people seem relatively normal and I'm not.
I can't. I'm stuck. My doctor diagnosed a cause. A lot of it is caffeine overdose, medications I have to take for autism, restless leg syndrom, etc. My feet got scratched up and my calves were in crucial pain and I couldn't stop then even, so its complicated issue.
I also have a combination of several mental illnesses: autism, schizophrenia, aspergers, depression, etc. So I don't exactly have the same brain that other people have. I have social problems, etc.
I am also a pretty weird person in general, based on how I comment on things. Its caused my to insult people incidentally quite a few times. So yeah, I've said some pretty awful shit when I'm not an my guard trying to stop myself.
There are also other issues, but I'm in an isolated state at my school, trying to find and join some communities. I will fail and get kicked out of all of them insulting people incidentally or just looking creepy to people, but hopefully I won't and I'll be ok.
Long story short: I have a long range and variety of mental problems. So no, the walking by itself isn't what makes me normal but I understand why you would say that.
It has to do with my leg muscles and their relation with my brain, other than the part that I am in control of. Sort of like the part of the brain that moves the heart for example, etc.
It is good that you have consulted a doctor however from the symptoms you describe you may like to consider seeing a specialist consultant as well.
Also if you are worried you will fail and get kicked out you may also like to consider a confidential talk with the student counsellor so they are aware of your difficulties and can assist you as much as they are able to.
Seems like you have many issues you are delaing with all at once. Have you tried a differtn mix of medicines under your doctors care? Sometimes the mix can make a big difference. I don't think you are as abnormal as you think. Everyone has issues. You just have to fnd a way to either control them (if possible) thorugh meds, etc. and/or find a group of friends who are socialluy awkward in similar ways. They will understand!
everybody is different from others ..you are different in your own way
the more you think that you are boring the more boring you will get so think positive :)
still nothing works out for you then try something new or else try to remove your anger and sadness through a form of art or go out and play..and get some fresh air
Harvey Danger sang "If you're bored then you're boring."
No offense meant or anything, but that's pretty much all there is to it. You have internet access and therefore have access to an insane wealth of information to find hobbies, subjects, or games you are interested in, as well as an insane wealth of networking opportunities to connect to those with shared interests.
If you're bored, it's only because you aren't fully utilizing the resources at your disposal to entertain and enrich yourself.
You need to repent of your sins and believe on the Lord Jesus Christ in His resurrection, receive Him by faith as your Savior, you can talk to God and he will hear you and save you if you will be honest with Him. He will make your life new, and you will know it has real and undeniable value and purpose.
It's sin's chains that have you feeling so bored, because you remain you and can't make yourself change. If you receive Jesus Christ as your Savior, He will be in you a new life, and all things will become new. There is hope. You can know God personally and have the joy of knowing you will be with Him in Heaven and that joy can get you through any problems or sorrows in life.
Get a King James Bible and read The Gospel According to John. That's a good place to start. Take it in thoughtfully. You see the way out of going in circles.
So many here are wasting away, frustrated and angry. You are being honest. That's a great start. There is a fountain of living waters to drink from. If you are thirsty, you can find that fountain. I really hope you do.
If you believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and receive Him as your Savior, He will be in you a well of water springing up to eternal life.
Great. So what does that mean to you? I am a staunch supporter of Israel, as I know God will always preserve a remnant of them and one day will rule the world from Mt. Zion, and soon all of the nations of the world will fight against Israel and God Himself will defend them and they will fall until the blood runs as deep as the horse's bridle.
Jesus is the Messiah of Israel, the King of the world. He's coming back, but before He sets up His throne on Earth there will be a false Messiah in Israel bringing a false peace agreement. He will cause all, small and great, rich and poor, to receive a mark in their right hand or in their forehead, so that any do not have the mark can neither but nor sell anything. The Jews in that day will accept him as Messiah, the Catholics will accept him as the great pope, the Hindus will accept him as the enlightened one, the Muslims will say he is Jesus the prophet of Allah who will force Christians to convert to Islam........atheists will say he's an alien or whatever.....and so on for all religions......
We are living in amazing times, frightening if you don't know how it all ends and you don't know the One who is in control. There is no reason for life to be boring....Jesus is coming back, most of the world is lost and dying and on it's way to Hell, and there is not much time to try to tell people they can be saved from Hell if they will repent of their sins and believe on the Lord Jesus Christ.