I started my post before you posted what you were trying, Chinese Health Balls are not Gay they are just small metal balls some with bells in which massage the pressure points in your palm and can help you relax

Stress can lead to anger, so if you are stressed meditation might help. Perhaps you should spend some quiet time examining anger. Replay events in your life where you were angry and examine if your anger made the situation better or worse. I think you'll find that it almost always makes the situation worse. So, the next time you are starting to get angry you need to stop and ask yourself, "Will me getting angry right now make things better or worse? Will it make me happier or less happy?" Once you realize that getting angry is just going to make you and the people around you miserable, it should give me more incentive to want to quell your anger. I know you are capable of doing it because you have already made such a huge change. You are a completely different person than you were a week ago. You just have to be patient and keep working at it. If you've been angry for a long time your brain has been trained to think a certain way. It will take time to retrain it. I'm sure if you google "anger management" you find lots of resources that can help you.

lol dont point your face up hahaha the oommm part is good, but i suggest you to do this: its aot easier, i believe: just lay on your back with your arms at your side, and smile (yes this does make a difference, and believe me, when you get the feeling you will be smiling anyways) and just focus on leaving your body (i knw sounds strange) just imagine moving yourself without actually moving, and imagine your body twisting, and twisting, like one of those rubber band propelled airplanes, just focus on these two thoughts: stay awake!

you will enter different depths of meditation, but each one is harder to remain focused (kind of like inception) its cool though, definitely worth it

and even if you dont "see" anything, anything and everything is an experience, even nothingness

I dont mean this in a condescending way but maybe your trying too hard this can be a problem with meditation if you try too hard your mind wont relax

I want to try weed. ;)

You are right some Yoga is Hindu. And I am right that some Yoga is not Hindu. Hatha yoga for the most part is just about mind and body. If it is about more, it is called ashtanga yoga, and please trust me because I used to do hatha yoga all the time.

It depends on the type of yoga like I said .